there were a few times in my life when I seemed to be somewhat okay in the social contact department. Those times never lasted very long, true... but for short periods, I could manage this friendship thing.

Why can't I do it in a sustained way? Why only for a year or two?

It's ridiculous how much fear I have of checking my f-list ( Read more... )

... tag.Jeez. Yeah, trouble's been brewing for a while here ( Read more... )

But the idea of phoning someone is still scary ( Read more... )

Recently, I seem to be even better than usual at pissing people off in vague and bizarre ways. Generally without meaning to. And, to be honest, I'm not even entirely sure if I'm pissing people off so much as perhaps rather causing a kind of "errrrrrrr you're a FREAK, get away from me" type of reaction. I dunno. Anyway, I've had heaps of odd ( Read more... )

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-introverts-corner/200911/introversion-and-the-energy-equationRead more... )

the biggest "brain freeze factor" in the previous glimpse into my psyche is the "social stuff" - I can make reasonably good To Do lists for things like fixing my bike and doing the dishes, but I'm unable to handle my social life in a similar manner. (Also, the unfixed bike - which tends to come at the bottom of my To Do list and so has remained ( Read more... )

60% M.A. thesis fear ( Read more... )

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, all you people I love and keep failing. (And the ones I don't know as well but sorta like, too.) I *was* doing well about catching up, and then I... slipped. Again. And here I am, standing in the tracks watching the disappearing train, with a thousand other things demanding my attention ( Read more... )